Thursday, March 31, 2005
Let me tell u what LOVE is..
For all you people who say, "I love you" when
you have no clue what love is exactly!!!
Something to ponder upon...
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and
is your voice caught within your chest?? -It
isn't love, it's LIKE.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of
her/him -
It isn't love, it's LUST.
Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -
It isn't love, it's LUCK.
Do you want her because you know she's/he's
there?? -
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.
Are you with her/him because it's what everyone
wants??
It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.
Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or
held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.
Do you stay for her/him confessions of love,
because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't love, it's PITY.
Do you belong to her/him because the sight of
her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.
Do you pardon her faults because you care about
her/him?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.
Do you tell her/him every day she is the only
one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.
Are you willing to give up all of your favorite
things for her sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.
Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for her/his pain, even when
she's/he's strong?
Then it's LOVE.
Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible
mix of pain and relation pulls you close and
holds you to her/him?
Then it's LOVE.
Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part
of who she/he is?
Then it's LOVE.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with
her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's LOVE.
Would you give her/him your heart, your life,
your death??
Then it's LOVE.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love? Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long
for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is
such an addictive thing that even people who are
not having it wish to experience it and share it
with others as well.
Pass this to all your friends so they don't make
the same mistake with their LOVE LIVES!! I like
the dreams of the future better than the history
of the past...
Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason
our soul heal..
9:32 PM
Rrr rrrr .... fuk man .... fuk fuk fuk fuk ...
i'm ventin my anger here ...
go 2 hell lar ... ArggHHhhhh
EVERYTING SUCSK MAN ....
GRHHHHHH ......
smash .. beaten ... tatterted .. torn ...
broken .... ...
dun read le ... tis post i'm lamin ...
felin better liaos ... lol ...
9:02 PM
sigh ... yestday was the last nite went bowl at marina le ...
will miss leeguan .. the mamanger dere ... haha ..
always slackin wif us ...
sch's fun ... hahah .. but yj suck ...
116 is so coOl lor ... haha ..
u all must be proud of pankie lei ... haha ..
i've finally made frens ...
n nv pON lesson !! ... surpRise riTE ... yuPpz .. went 4 all ..
i was so wan go out wif u all ... but den ...
tink gonna pon 2ml lar ... realli hvae 4 hrs break if i wun skip ...
wif so many ppl like shing nice you zuo ... haha .. i wun be bored ..
but den .. i still wan go ny ... hiaz ... gd bye ny n cj ...
chicken n mushroom tart ... yea man ...
i lOVE IT ....
however realli sad ... y cant we all be same sch ...
although made frens but still i dun realli feel close ...
hope we'll nv be apart ... i'll realli just drop dead ..
feel so nice gg out wif u all after sch everday ...
however dun tink will be able 2 next time ...
treasurin as much as i can ...
time realli pass v fast ... shock as i ahve been ...
its not in my control ...
realli realli like u ... y cant i just 4get bout it ...
stUpid n dumb mi ....
8:15 PM
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
2nd day as a loner .. haha ...
know onli 1 person in my class ...
sad rite ... hiaz .. cos dun even nOE mY clAss lar ..
frm 120 to 125 .... where next ??
2 hrs of deep tot ... i'll drop my fav geog to take physics ..
my current combi dun realli hvae a future ...
i may regret it .. i may not ...
my life is gettin dam tough ....
meetin dem everday realli lights up my life ..
without u all i dunno how i'd survive ....
thx 4 being round mi ....
9:23 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
yea ... i waS so happie 2day ..
was so happie 2day ....
had tis feelin again ....
occured twice in a 5 days le ...
shoUld i do it ??
it can end all my misery ...
it would den be happie ... hahas ...
wadever ....
sry 4 walkin out like tt again ....
aeallnnsdeydhea1morsliupe
7:14 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
i hope i can get over tis feelin ..
i feel tat i'm a loner in yj ....
my cause of depression ...
i will try 2 act normal ... i hope i can ..
my heart has already been shattered in pieces le ...
is how i try 2 piece it back again ...
all of dem in ny .... sigh ...
y god .. y must u make fun of mi like tt ...
do u wan mi 2 take my life ...
it is so bad ok ... tryin 2 stop it ...
guess its tis 4 now ...
gg 2 sr n yj 2ml ..
hope everyting goes well ...
whishin upon a star ...
11:02 PM
boo!!
wahahaha i m so bored
so i decided 2 blog here
well i haven decide on wat i wanna blog
but i guess it will lame-ing all de way lahh
haha
okay first
i m not pang
haha guess who m i????
no i m nt gg 2 tell u all
u all will just have 2 guess
if u guess correctly
well i dun think i have rewards 4 u guys
wahahahaha
but its a real achievement u know
if u guess correctly
tt means u r kinda smart
but den again i m smarter
cuz u all r in my little guessing game
so u all know hu le mahh?
gd luck man ha
2:50 PM
dunno wad ching ming festival alr ...
make mi wake up so ealry ...
so those stupid temples go pray ....
waste my time sia .... i so tired ...
chatted til so late and made mi wake up at 8 ... wtf ..
now my whole body irks of the insense smell n smoke ...
hate it man ... should ban burnig of joss sticks ...
harm 2 ppl n erviromnet ... bANN ...
2ml have 2 go sr n yj ... sigh ...
2 cock schs ... howver i dun hvae a choice ...
wad a life man ..
sry tt u guys must read mi complaining but the blog is used 4 tis .. haha
2:22 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
y must all these tings happen 2 mi ...
sometimes i just feel tt god is makin fun of mi ...
y ?? y is tis so ... i'm so depressed ...
i feel like killin myself ...
tts fun rite ... tryin 2 kill yrself ... cool man ...
1001 ways 2 kill myself ....
y cant i just go in2 ny or cj ....
must i reali end up in cock schs like sr n yj ...
i dun mind lar ... all sch are the same wad ..
tt wad she sae ... but it is diff when so few ppl are in yr sch ..
u all just dun understand ...
i realli am confused ...
i dun even understand myself ....
its bcos of so many gd frens like u all ...
i realli dunno wad 2 do now ...
she's been presurein mi everday ..
i'm gettin fed up ...
been yellin n shoutin like a mad person ..
i am gg crazy soon ...
cant pick up all the shattered pieces ...
realli loVe u ...
miss u very much
wad am i 2 do ?? ...
i realli do not noe ..
i cant just study like tt everyday rite
gg nuts bout it ...
soon .. i'll just break down in front of all of u ...
unable 2 get back up ...
is tis how it should be ?? ..
i am very confused blog ......
no1 can help mi now ... its deterioting everyday ..
even i dunno how 2 help myself ...
i realli wan u in my life badly ...
10:34 PM
finally ... after the few days of anguish .....
i finally made up my mind 2 go 2 yj ...
although nt my preferred choice ... but ...
the world does not owe u anyting ...
like one of my gd fren said ... any sch u go 2 is gd ....
finally i do cry in my slp on the bus ...
feelin so down everywhere i go .....
not being able 2 slp ....
i am sick of waiting 4 the reply of cj n ny ...
but i oso noe tt it will probably wun make it ...
so ... hvae 2 choose yj quickly ...
now ...all my frens are in cj n ny ... i feel v sad ....
have 2 realli go be sociable n make frens le ..
shAun .. u CAN do iT ...
lucky still gt shing n nice ... jon n shaun .. n others ...
it now seems not so bad rite ?? ... but i tink it is worse ..
wadever lar ... i dun care le .....
gonna chiong these 2 yrs n make it go by quickly ...
gg be beomce mugger liAO ...
shing mh mel jia ernest boon kat ... thx 4 helpin mi these past few days ... i'd probably be alrite ... lets see my fate n destiny now ...
7:24 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
wanted 2 jump on2 the road near e passin car ...
however i was a coward .... i decided nt too ...
i feel so unwanetd ... no jcs wan mi .. siGh ...
but den i can go back yj .. hahas ...
yj .. here i come baby ... although nt my preferred chocie ...
but i guess its all rite ... e food's good ... tecahers are gd ...
just hOope wun bump in garneh n my life would just go on ...
thx every1 whu try 2 help mi ....
maybe its fate lar ....
i hvae decided 2 go appeal yj and stay dere ...
i'll be contented and happIe ....
finally puttin back e broken pieces ...
5:25 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
yar ... tis feelin comes once again ...
been cryin e entire day ....
full of nerds and kiam pa ppl .. okok ..
nothin is perfect ... i noe ...
maybe i'm 2 choosy ... i dunno ..
tts y if tis appeal 2 ny is nt successful ...
i'll go back 2 yj ...
takin back all tat i said .. i will ask her 2 let mi in again ...
holdin back my pride .. i ask her 2 let mi reenter e sch again ..
finally understands y my mum nags at mi ..
shaun study hard !! ..
go 4 yr cca !! ...
dun play !! ...
all those i just pass off as naggin ..
finally i bear e consequences ...
my life now is in a mess ...
trying e clear it slowly by slowly ..
pls give mi some time ... i noe there isnt much left ..
i promise 2 do everyting wholeheartedly ...
pls .. i hope u'll forgive mi ...
i realli dun wanna be left alone again ...
hope 2ml trail will be successful ... i doubt so lar ..
lookin at how i play .. i suck completely ...
hope shing n mh can go in 2 ... tt would be wonderful ...
10:00 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
ohh man ... new chapt of my life is gonna begin ..
AND ITS IN SRJC.... !!!! ... wth ... hahah ..
frm a suck sch ... to another suck sch ...
wads the diff man ....
goNNA be sociable liao and n2 ... .. haha ...
wanna mke more frens ... yea man .. tts my gOal ..
it can be boring or fun ... see how i loOk at it ..
ernest shing cp n melissa gg 2 ... haha .. lucky gt frens dere ..
but ernest n most likely shing gonna appeal away .. sigh ...
however hOpe my appeal 2 wither ny or cj is successful ..
professor pank will now spread muggerlism ...whOOoo ...
9:23 PM
Monday, March 21, 2005
wateverrrr
wateva
wadever
whatever
whateva ...
zzz ... nOnsense lar ...
gO 2 helll ...
spitually dead liao ...
heLP mi !! ....
10:47 PM
just gt my report slip and is yj realli duMb ...
haha .. i didnt even attend the tings n they gace mi 0 ... wth !!
suppose 2 mi not inside .. haha .. stUpid sch siA ... lame ...
the tecahers oso very scacastic ... haha ..
tink i suan dem til siAO le .. now their turn ...
its fine wif mi lar ... they all quite gd teachers ..
next time builD si maybe will hire dem ...
yar .. i will hire garnesh be scarecrow in fornt of e sch .. hahahs ..
went casurina dere eat hot plate ting ..
wasted my time sia .. stupID ernest ...
somemore pang sei us .. tt lamer ..
next time dun go dere eat liaos ..
e food oso not sae very nice ..
the best ting is tt it help us 2 be more patient ..
cos it was like so damm long lor ... 45 mins ... lOl ..
played the whole day 2day ... haha ...
ate tibits and stuffs ..
we're growin fat man ..
playe capcon n tt desmond is super tyco .. haha ..
the rest slp n slack around ...
late went pool n des wad dere winnig every1 haha .. wth .
last day liao ...
gonna get results 2ml ...
den my life would be over ...
SHAun - spirtually died on 22 march ... hahas ..
10:15 PM
y is the world plaque by unhapniess and disorder ?? ..
y r ppl so stubbon ?? y do the casue sufferin ?? r they animals ?? ...
blast in a british sch ... protest in the streets ...blast in iraq..
cant the world be a happier place ...
all these wll nv happen ...
cause ppl are grEEdy .. evil ...
all of dem shouLD juSt die ....
alosona wOn e grand prix ... hehex ...yEA !!! ...
shumachacer is old le .. or maybe his car is not as gd ... hahas ..
finally gt life in f1 ... sigh ... but now cannot see 2 red cars be first n second le ..
hope they can do tt soon ..
when their new cars are unvield .....
i wanna build a grand prix track in our aussie home ... haha ..
yea ... den can race le ... lOl ... be e best track in e world ..
whOooOO ...
sOo damm happIE ... hahhaa .....
11:25 AM
yeah ... finally changed my stupId phone ...
wad a relief ... but my new 1 is lamer!! ... haha ..
went melissa chalet ...
onli 6 of us .. loL ..
lamed about .. played pOOl n tok ... so FUn ..
onli could have stayed over .. hiaz ....
wad a day ... hehex .... met few ppl ... made frens ...
cOOlx ....
u gUys roX ....
12:10 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
went sakura jUst now ...
and it completely sucks ...
they call it a buffet restaurant ...
and 2 mi it looks like a buffet food court ..
so roudy and no class at all ...
omg ..the food oso no stardard ...
i rather go mirama ..
haha ...
11:48 AM
Friday, March 18, 2005
Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
[Repeat Chorus]
I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time
11:36 AM
dream of being rich ..
striking toto ... 10 million dollars !!!
migrate 2 australiA ..buy a large piece of land ..buIld our hSe ...
hse 4 all of us ..simming pooL, baskteball court, tennnis court, bowling alley, soccer field, gym, pool room, viewin tower for stars, spa, helipad, laKE, horse ridin ground, lan gAMing centrewe will have chaffuers 2 bring us everywhere ..and our personal jET ...
now we'll add a zoo in our australia hOme ...den can produce animal series ..
haha ..we'll open money changers 2 earn money ..and play in the stock marketand play in the stcok market make money...
open hotels round the world ...
i wanna buiLd an underground lab .. so tt i can plAy ...
rae wans disNey land .. so bUild lor .. super huge
den kat wans giraffe and zebra and works in the zoO..
hahah ....mh can have his farm n coWs ... every moring make us breakfast ..
shing take over the money changer ...coOlx man ...
oUr hSe and plans 2 earn money roX ...
put laser round our hse .. so robbers cannot come in ..n those we hate oso cannot come ...
buildin a dolphin lagoon 4 boon ...
and maybe a lake 4 myself ... love e scenery ..
hvae e latest defence system ...
n our whole plcae can go underground ..wif cars ... subs .. jets n heliptor .. bicycles and scooter .. lOl ..
jia wan grape vines ... can make alcohOl ..
den can bOOzeee ... hahaha ..
sometimes she will go zoo help kat .. hahas ..
12:44 AM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
haha ... mi n my hair ...
its so cocK !! .. haha ..
stupiD stylist nv do gd job ... wth ..
anyways ..went bowling ..
n pratically threw away my money ..
shouLD have played pool .. but v no life ... haha ..
we have no liFE !!!!
i am so bored .. bored 2 tears ...
we realli have no life ..
i cut my hair .. bought shoe ...
need a bag n some new clothes ...
a shade oso can .. haha .. contacts ?? maybe ..
erm ... yar .. n a i pod mini .... hehex ...
11:09 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
dream of being rich ..
striking toto ... 10 million dollars !!!
migrate 2 australiA ..
buy a large piece of land ..
buIld our hSe ... hse 4 all of us ..
simming pooL, baskteball court, tennnis court, bowling alley, soccer field, gym, pool room, viewin tower for stars, spa, helipad, laKE, horse ridin ground, lan gAMing centre
we will have chaffuers 2 bring us everywhere ..
and our personal jET ...
now we'll add a zoo in our australia hOme ...
den can produce animal series .. haha ..
we'll open money changers 2 earn money ..
and play in the stock market
and play in the stcok market make money...
open hotels round the world ...
i wanna buiLd an underground lab .. so tt i can plAy ...
rae wans disNey land .. so bUild lor .. super huge de
n kat wans giraffe and zebra and works in the zoO.. hahah ....
mh can have his farm n coWs ... every moring make us breakfast ..
shing take over the money changer ...
coOlx man ... oUr hSe and plans 2 earn money roX ...
10:41 PM
wad a day ....
my com sucks ...
i wan a new 1 ...
a com 2 my oWN ....
i'm shag .... slept 5 hrs onli ... argGhhhh
desperation is seepin in2 mi ..
had suCh a fuNni tok ...
i wan go dOME ...
gonna cut hair .. cut slippers ...
6:03 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
freSh frm the oven !!!!!!! ...
lastest frm wc lamesT jokEs ...
the content that u, viewers are goin 2 see is extremely lame ... it is not suitable for those that dun wan 2 be coLD and the faint hearted ... pRoferror pank has issued a warining 2 those goin 2 see this " have a heater near u " .... pls .. dun try this add home ..
*highlight the below section
Mary had a little lamb
Her father shot it dead.
Now it's going to school with her,
Between two chunks of bread.
jack and jill
went up the hill
to have a little fun
jack forgot about
the condoms he bought
and now they have a son
i sincerely regret the inconvinence caused ....
realli miss u
11:39 PM
baby i love u
and i will nv let u go
but if i have 2
boy i tink tat i should let u noe
all the love we made
can never be erased
and i promise you that u will nv be replaced
.... .... ....
wad a song .. haha .. sO nice ...
had maggie mee juSt now .. haha ..
meL n jIA cooKed ..
and i can sae that it is very ... unIque ..
quite nice lar ... hahas ..
gg 2 end the world soon ..
see no ponit in living ...
3:13 PM
i dun wanna love u ..
i dun wanna see u ...
years gone by as we are apart ..
forever at a distance ...
wishing that u were here ...
tears of sorrow n seluduation ..
peace out wif mi ...
lookin at the stars above
nothin seems to be like it is ..
wonderin y the earth is made like tt ...
are words meant 2 describle tis ??
when i grow up ... i wan go find loch ness monster ..
go 2 the place where the sky at nite has many colours..
to glaciers and waterfalls ...
go 2 the deepest ocean bed n discover exotic creatures ..
find a fossil tt is unknown
taking wif mi all the fond memories
haha .. juSt crappin ... my dreams ..
most or maybe all may nt be realise .. but whu noes ??
am realli bored riTE now ..
the surroundin is so humid ..
siGh .. prata 4 breakfast ... haha ..
so shag now ... feelin drowsy ....
3:13 AM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
will be gg over 2 bOon's hse ...
gonna taunt the whole nite ..
2 bad cannot bOOze ?? ..
can booze water onli .. haha .. sKy soda .. tats nice ..
i long 4 the grape bacardi ..like ribena .. heha ..
i am so shag now .. haha .. dunno can last a not ..
any1 wanna conf 2nite ?? loL ...
5:37 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
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10:19 PM
my blog is a bit usual these few days .. haha ..
words tat juSt cant grow back 2 the small fond again ..
finally gt 2 play bball 2day ..
had a great workout ..
i'm becomin fat le .. haha ..
eat n eat ... loL ....1 week of hoildays begins ..
and i tink i will be busier than when i'm in sch ..
many many tings 2 do ...
tings 2 buy ... room 2 keep ... ppl 2 go oUt ..
realli am very dissapointed wif myself ...
i've overspent again .. n mi slippers n hair cut will be $25
almost lost my wallet .. been losin many tings these days ...
10:08 PM
finaLly ... another chapter of my life is over ...
although it is fast ... but reallli had a great time ..
ok .. yjc doesnt seem 2 be a tt bad sch now ..
the teachers are ok .. and wif some proper management at the top i tink it should be alirght ..
will miss the ponning days .. t23 and P18 ... and my 2 ogls ..
made many frens .. grew closer 2 some during these past mths ..
my onli regret is nt makin more frens .. haha ..
hopin 2 go either cj or ny now ...
den .. my 1 1/2 years of jc life wiLl begIn ... a neW chapt ..
9:54 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
eat to live or live 2 eat ?
rite or wrong ..
matter or anti-matter ..
god or devil ....
whu noes ??
dream of being rich ..
migrate 2 australiA ..
buy a large piece of land ..
buIld my hSe ... hse 4 all of us ..
simming pooL, baskteball court, tennnis court, bowling alley, soccer field, gym, pool room, viewin tower for stars, spa, helipad, laKE, horse ridin ground, etc
nt onli a dream ... its not impossibLE ..
noThin is impossibLE ...
the sImple life ....
wadever iT tAkes ....
nooCh ... its ok lar ..
the best tourist attraction is bArcelona ... nt big apple
had fun 2day ..
bowL n pOol ..
wow .. mel's bowling is damm gD .. haha ..
enjoyed myelf 2day ..
quick come back mH ...
damm pissed off now ..
woUld u pay $30 4 chalet .. wth man ...
come oN .. iTS lame rIte ... wad can i do 4 $30 ..
9:22 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
stoning ...
lets yr mind flow ...
makes u tink ...
lets u build castle in the air ...
tinkin of the past .. ponderin bout the future ...
psaeorsnafooktsfrcopeprrv
nv go sch 2day ..
stuck at home cos no1 can go out ...
readin bks .. packin my room ...
finally gt the much needed rest ...
deception .. gossiPs ...
all part of liFe ....
htylaoeolppvnbpeeweitrihe
2:03 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Is gonna bring me down
Will never bring me down
Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down
Shut up, shut up, shut up
tiS song wil rock u when u r frustarted ...
juSt close e dOoR n blasT it ...
11:25 PM
itS jUSt coincidence ok ...
dUn presumE .. assuMe u noe everyting ...
so plS stOp it ....
went 2 sch 2day .. haha ..
seems like ages liAo ...
guEss wad ... nothin change .. hate the sch as ever ..
dun feel like gg 2ml .. gt match u noe .. haha
mILAn vs man u ... gReAt matches ... miLAn wiLl obviouLSy win ..
gooNA be shack 4 2 days le ..
juSt woKE uP frm a deep slp ....
slpin onli 2 hrs a day .. wtH ....
where 2 2ml ?? ... i dunno ...
hOpe iT wiLL be interesting .... yeaH mAN ...
leTs rock n roLL ...
10:51 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
haha ..schumacher didnt won e race .. so sad ..
but he wasnt e favourate lar ...
finalyy some1 - fisichella won .. haha ..
hope tat karthikeyyan will win next race ...
i love rookie 2 win .. loL ...
jAI yOu le ...
hOpin 2 go watch f1 someday ...
next year perhaps ...
i wanna go 2 the australian grand prix .. haha ..
monaco is better ..
or even europe .. haha .. but now .. no $$ ...
i gonna go pull teeth le .. haha .. so sad ..
sure screm n whine dere .. hOpe nt ..
i reali hAte pAIn .. wth ..
y muST my teeth be like tt ??...
11:50 AM
i feel sad everytime i tink of u ...
remember e 1 is u 2 .....
11:19 AM
i'm still undecided where 2 go ..
still gt til 6 2 tink ...
gt doubts whether can go ny ..
i'm so confused. ...
gonnA do my teeth ting 2ml ..
hope will nt postone again ..
but i'm realli scared ... haha ..
wad if the pain is unberable ??
wad if i cannot take it ?? ..
onli goD noes ..
decption point ...
da vinci code ...
angels n demons ....
next ... digital fortress ...
hiS bkS are damm interesting ...
1:00 AM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
events after events ..
war after war ...
scandals ....
liEs ...
jeaLouslY ....
oUtraGE ...
desperatiOn ....
serIEs of on-gOin evenTS
aesoilsebtlneewdomaaottss
wadever thE cAse ...
11:56 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
finally appiled 4 jae ...
thX every1 who hAve guided n hELp ; gIvin mi advice or been listenin 2 my naggin
mel jIA mh rae elsa shing cb wc ernest eunice melissa ...
although still not sure now ..
i hOpe can make it 2 ny lar .. if i i'd go 2 ny ..
hope my choices are gd ..
made many mistakes in the past ...
countless .. hope tiS wun be 1 ....
5:46 PM
Friday, March 04, 2005
haha .. guess where am i ?? ..
siGh .. they went watch moVie ...
ok . i didnt go 4 e 1s time .. didnt feel like it ..
how 2 watch when ur sad ?? ...
someting deep inside mi ..
emotional ?? i dunnoo ...
i still have yet 2 do e jae ting .
can call mi a coward ... i dun dare press the sumit button ..
onLi if i wasnt so stuPId .. i coulD have goNE in2 ny wif dem ..
noW .. hAVe ta gO cj or somewhere else tt i dun belONg ..
mAybe i mAy adapt ?? onlI e holY 1 noEs ..maybe i may nt ..
feLLin liKE breakin dOWn le ..
haven been tiS bad sInce last yEAr ..
yea .. itS back .. loL
i feeL i dun belong here ...
feeL tt i am so strange 2 my surroundings ...
being lonely .. gives mi timE 2 tink n wonder ...
makIn it shatter everytime ..
at the distace i see ... nothin seems 2 be riTE ..
i maY nt be the person tt i was 1s agaIn ...
fate or destiny ?? or is it self-inflicted ?? ..
deptH of hatred n sOrrow beyond repair ...
3:23 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i won minghong at bowling 2day
5 out of 6 ... haha ... lOl... luCk bAH ...
i so fucked uP lar ...
hoW ???
mOe sucks .. so slOW .... zzz ...
now cannot loG in .. later cannot apply 4 jc . hhaha ..
i wan go take arts ... but mum dun let ...
den go ask my teacher she sae take chem econs n cmaths .... siGh ..
hoW ?? .... haiz .. at a lOSt ....
shoUIlD i pUt ny 1s or cj ?? 1 more hr 2 decide ....
4:54 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
i realli wann go nY ...
i realli wan 2 go 2 tat sch ....
i reality tt has set in realli makes mi frustrated ...
my heart is shattered now ...
tinkin of nt abLE 2 go dere ..
i been cryin eve since. ..
at niTE ... alonE ... emotionally unstable le ...
yea .. i'm hvain war again ..
i'm tryin nt 2 shout ...
but everytime she will shout ..
so ... i'll shout back ...
everytime we meet we'll hvae war ...
it'S nt e hAppie family iT 1s used 2 be ...
lOOks like drowin my sorrow is ths onli solution ..
jUmpin down in e sea ... i didnt go any where near e sea 2 day ..
someday i'll will ,,,
9:16 PM
after a nitE of tinkin ... yea didnt slp realli ..
16 isst tt bad .. neither is it gD ....
lets hOpe tt later when i go 2 ny ....
the principal will let us in2 her sch ... plS ...
loOKs like i'm gonna go dere beg her ..
plS mrs *** pls let mi in .. i beg of u .... haha ..
i'll give her e pathetic lOOk and hOpe she'll sae ... yEShhh ..
yar ... was havin war last niTE .. a discussion lar ..
which turned out 2 mi shoutin n de n de n de ...
noW they wan mi go pOlY .. zzz wth ..
bcos i wan take arts ?? ... haha ...
2 mi .. i tot my results were ok ....
although i tot i could do well in el .. dunno y tt marker gave mi b4 .. gonna kILL him n myself ...
my science weren't tt gD .. chem b3 n physics b4 ...
srY i'm cheong n kor .. srY for nt studyin harder b gettin better results ...
sry 4 nt gettin a better mark ....
realli dissapointed in my science ...
which sch woULd accpet mi in2 science ?? after they see tiS .. si ?? haha
den i gt b4 4 cl .. haha .. thX mr nGo ... whOOOOoo .. i gt b4 ...
didnt realli expect it .. i tpot c5 was realli gD ...
thE cohort did reletively well lar ...(( they even gace sch a 1/2 day leave)) wth
miss foong was like dere givin e figures ...
n i was sittin dere feelin sO nervoUS nearly wanna cRY...
y ?? bcos of those WHITE letters n the rumours i can get 20+ ..
made mi realli depressed ..
i realli tot i gt more than 20 le ...
i was realli gonna like go kILL ny self if i gt those scorre ..
u noE y ...
cOS after i gt e results ...
contant flOW of ringin came in ...
i didnt even wanna tell dem i gt 16 ...
i was so paI seI lor ...
my cousin last time gt 9 .. other 1 oso gt quite gD ...
n i gt 16 .. wtH ... the neighbour gt 6As n my cat high frens gt 8 -10 ..
even my granny was liKE .. " hAO ma ?? ke bi the weI nian na 6 ke As lei"
i was like dere .. wadeverRRRrrr ...
hAppie 4 dem issnt it .. yea i guess so ...
n e e2 jiinx is still in place ...
no1 gt in2 top pupil .. haha ..
2 bad lar ... allthough quIte a gD clas last time .. now gettin luAn le ..
sO .. wHU cares ??? ... haha ....
i'm so sad now .... feelin loSt ...
dunNO wad 2 do... fEllin so nUmb ....
last nitE .. i was chattin away bein so ambitious ..
buyin over everyting in the world the unifyin it ...
haha .. lOOkin the my marks i doubT so lar ...
being a geologiSt ?? buiLD planes ??
y cant we stuDY somemore ..
have less decisions 2 make ...
wad if i duNno wad 2 stUdY ...
go in2 the wrong course ...
our edcuation system realli shas a flAw le ...
wad if a person duNNo wa 2 stUDy n takes e wrong course ...
future wiLL nt be gD ...
i can be new repoter lar ... go taIbEi n follow yang ming ...
tiS is yang ming channel news asia ..... taibei ... haha .. so fuNNI ...
9:14 AM